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Monday, October 23, 2006

Didn't sleep last night,
was watching princess hours, hahas,
I think I'm quite weird,
I like watching shows in the middle of the night,
cause watching it with my sis is no fun,
forever asking questions.
Anw, my maggi mee was a disaster,
it tasted horrible,
LOL, I'm a lousy cook,

I'm so bored,
I think everybody got bored of me,
saying that I'm bored.
Anw, had church,
I don't know why,
I just cannot keep awake during sermons,
no matter how hard I try,
my head will just start dropping.

I think I will blog every small detail down,
cause I'm suffering from post-exams boredom syndrome,
PEBS, hahas!

Had some bible quiz today,
whee, my knowledge of the bible quite good ah,
I know andrew has a brother and Jehovah Jireh means provider,
whee, I'm that's why ((:
I think reuben is gay,
me and dianne agreed on that,
haha, he wants to learn how to play the tambourines!
LOL! Okay, that is so random.

Zhijun was the top scorer for the first round,
why?
She copied my answer,
HAHAS! IT'S TRUE!
Oh, and when the question,
'Who is predicted that David will be king' was asked,
somebody go put 'an uncle'
HAHAS! So stupid!
I think it was fu yun, cannot remember.
Btw, committee of '07,
please get the action plan done asap,
so I can go ask Janice,
yeah, that's about all.

The four of us, me, zhijun, yu hui and rachael,
were copying each other's anwers,
but yu hui didn't get into the second round,
why?
He didn't listen to us, the ladies,
tsk, anw, yanlin took his place,
and the whole copying thing started again,
hahas! Damn funny,
after a few questions,
we decided not to play liao,
so just draw a smiling face and write wrong,
hahas!

After that, had meeting,
argh, plan camp actually very complicated leh,
tsk, but it will be a fun camp XD
Lunched later,
gosh, all three of us, zhijun, me and rachael,
HAD NO MONEY!
So, they lah, wah, push me to borrow money,
from miao zheng lao shi,
wah, I felt so humilated lorh,
HAHAS!
But better than go begging in the streets,
wanting money for LUNCH,
LOL!

After luch then go home,
I forgot that I had no money in my ezlink,
AHHHH!
Cannot go home liao,
lols! But rachael suddenly found a $5 note in her bible,
just nice for me to top up,
HAHAS! GOD PROVIDES ((:
anw, walk to lavender with rach,
and me and Zhijun got off at outram to change lines,
saw Tommy's mom in the train,
hahas, zhijun is absolutely, 100% insane, spastic and crazy!
Goodness, when both of us were listening to my mp3,
she took it and pluggd out her ear phone,
AND TURN THE VOLUME TO THE MAX!
She did that for 5 times,
and she PLUGGED HER EAR PHONE
gosh, claire became deaf today,
but zhijun didn't,
and she still can laugh and laugh and laugh,
TSK!

I'm uber bored,
so late liao, 12.10am
yet I cannot sleep,
I feel so hungry,
I want to go to the beach!
Go kayaking or something,
ahhh, I want my two star kayaking proficiency,
but only got one, I taking the course next year XD

Got so many thing I want to learn lah,
but studies always gets into the way,
I want to learn
sailing, first-aid, tennis, windsurfing, wakeboarding,
dragonboating, canoeing, ice skating.
wah, so many things,
all mostly sports, heehee,
got no interest in music,
piano was a bad bad experience already,
I scolded the teacher and told her to go home,
LOL! Random again.
I need to make use of these two months of hols,
and learn things,
I think I'm learning tennis and sailing in the hols,
YAY!

You tell me to show good example,
do you?
You only know how to use words to bring me down,
only know how to point out my mistakes,
and shove them in my face.
I'm almost numb to all the critises, scolding,
I've received, I'm sick of it.
You said I want to learn so many things,
but my studies no good,
IS 69.3 FOR AVERAGE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU?!
You asked why never even hit 70,
why don't you go for the exams and see how well,
you will fare.

You asked me why english never hit 70,
I DON'T KNOW ANYBODY AROUND ME HITTING A DARN 70!
well, there may be people, but I don't know who.
What's more, I did try,
english cannot help it,
My grammer not very good, but my vocab is good,
CAN'T HELP IT!
okay, maths can, I DID TRY,
I already finshed the stupid workbook full of maths questions,
do you know that,
I nearly tore the book up in fustration.
You think I don't want to get into the combination I want ah,
I've been working hard since the beginning of the year,
hitting a 70+ for average,
when in sec one I hit a 62,
I DID WORK HARD!
You are still not satisfied.

I really cannot help it for maths,
I'm just not a maths person,
I don't know why I can top the whole level in primary 4,
but I really dislike this subject,
yet, I tried, and managed a 61,
not good enough?
You said my results were like shit,
I did better than most people,
it's just my crucial subjects,
didn't do well,
but I did well for science, 76,
eoy, 65, the paper was so difficult,
that some people in my class, A2, actually FAILED,
the highest score didn't even hit 80,
still not pleased?!

Goegoraphy, 72 for eoy,
not good?! It's a freaking A2!
The teacher actually gave me one extra mark,
but the queue was long, so I decided to wait after it was shorter,
before going, since I'm not too excited about it either,
but I went too late, Tessa Tan refuses to change my marks,
did you know how guilty I felt?
History, yeah, I failed it,
44.4,
I studied, I really did,
what you choose to believe, suit yourself,
I really forgot everything when I saw the paper,
it as a killer, many pepople failed history in the level,
It's true.

Do you know,
that in my squad, only 2 people passed ALL their eoy papers,
and my squad has about 20 people,
okay, only 2 from A classes,
you argued, you said I'm one of them,
SO?! From A that means must do well?!
Must you compare someone from A class and C class?!
I already tried my best,
my best.
That, I can look into your eyes and say it confidently.

Since young,
you forced me to be independent,
I had to fend for myself,
you gave your time to the rest of them,
cause I was generally smarter,
so I don't really need much help,
if I had questions, I'll go and find out the answer myself,
I didn't want to bother you,
since you are already busy helping them.
I felt you had no time for me,
so I kept everything inside,
dad is always working,
I don't want to bother him too,
so I grew up, keeping everything to myself.

When I grew older,
I'm starting to see the communication prroblem,
so we had a thrashing session,
I told both of you, that you never listen to me,
when I tried to speak out,
all I got was, you have to respect your parents,
whether they listen to you or bother to hear what you have to say,
so I shut up and listened.
I grew up feeling that,
nobody had time for me,
everybody have their own things to do.

What do both of you know about me,
NOTHING!
except what is on the outside,
when you come and drive me home,
in the car, I tried to tell you what happened in school and stuff,
but all you did was say em em em, nodding your head,
when I ask, are you listening,
you said huh, what are you talking about,
I gave up then.

Sometimes,
I feel that my existence,
is a total mistake.

I love this song,
ask me to sned you if you want it XD

Evermore

I will sing
Of the wonders of the Lord
And I will shoutOf your faithfullness
Oh God
For there is none like You
Seated in Your majesty
Holy One I come
To worship you forevermore

EvermoreEvermore

You are my God
my Life my all
And I live for You alone
I am Yours Evermore
Heaven and earth will shout Your praise
The wonder of Your name
I proclaim
Evermore
Evermore
Evermore

I will run
Into Your presence
And I will sing
Sing Forevermore